i’ve became what i swore i’d destroy
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there’s something really poetic when things turn this way. when that fucking “never say never” saying comes running, bitting your fucking ass. like, you really need to enjoy your blissful ignorance, before it hits you like a fucking brick straight to your retarded head. never is a strong, and powerful word that should be used in extreme moderation.
so, what is this about? you know these warning labels like “children of smokers are more likely to become smokers themselves”? i thought of them like “yeah right, but not me”. i was entirely convinced that i would never ever smoke, and as we realized ‘never’ rarely works out. so do i smoke now? depends how much you wanna stretch the definition. “(almost) my entire family smokes, but not me”, i guess this isn’t true anymore either lol.
i’ve held strong for 26 years of my life, never trying it, not even when i was “expected to” in the high school. but lately life felt kinda meh so i got myself some “flavoured air”. it’s calming and relaxing. and honestly, so yummy. so i kinda have fallen to their marketing plot, but i don’t give a shit, really. might be harmful for the body, but if brain is happy, if brain is stimulated; i’m happy, i’m stimulated. feeling meh and lowkey stressed isn’t it. the biggest irony in all this is that i’m keeping it hidden, like i am a teenager, which obviously, i am not. but i don’t want my family to know.
starting strong
yeah the one i got is technically meant for people who smoked or vaped for years, not curious idiot looking for happy chemicals. but oh well. what doesn’t kill me, makes me stronger. cheery flavoured 20mg/ml stronger to be precise. what flavor should i try next?
yeah this is “bad” but a few hits here and there won’t be too harmful anyways. i don’t plan on getting addicted or dependent, but if it, happens it happens. responsible thing to say would be to say i don’t endorse this behavior. but at the end of the day you’re your own person. me saying “please don’t” is not gonna stop you...
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posted on: 2024-11-27 12:02 AM