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august 15, 2025 @ 08:03 pm | est. reading time: 2 - 3 mins | word count 370

i'm exhausted

i know i got y’all used to a new post every few days, but i can’t, as you can see. i just really can’t. first i got obsessed with an MMO, which is fine imo, it is good to have hobbies, but i feel like i kind of abandoned this website because of it...

and then, when i don’t feel like being in the game, i don’t even feel like living either. i don’t mean this in a “i wanna kill myself kinda way” but in a “fuck this weather” kinda way. it’s been way too hot and way too humid for my liking. i mean it’s better than winter, as i get cold kinda easily, but your room feeling like a malfunctioning sauna, is definitely not ideal either.

it’s the kind of heat where you sit down to do something, anything and immediately feel your brain cells melting like a juice-based popsticle.you can’t tell if you’re lazy or just slowly becoming one with the couch. there’s only so many chilled energy drinks a person can drink before you start questioning your life choices. my brain simply refuses to download any new ideas until the humidity drops below “boil alive”. as i write this humidity is over 30%. and i know this is weak shit for people living near the sea, or whatever, but this is in a “i cant breathe” category for me... i can’t have AC as i’ve said in previous posts so yeah.

i’m tired. i’m always tired even though i’m literally not doing anything at all.

the other day it was over 35℃ and to make things worse, i couldn’t even shower that day.. we didn’t have water for an entire day, like we’re living in prehistoric times lmao. water only came back the following day... not being able to flush.... on that heat was also a nightmare lol. but i guess i’ve survided that... and no it wasn’t even “water restrictions”, but apparantly the pipe broke somewhere upstream. i dunno how much i wanna believe in that though lol. it was a fucking disaster not having water...

and the thing is, they predict summers will only become hotter... did we seriosly fuck up the planet THIS badly???

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