you need to understand before we fucking start, im in my late 20s. all my life i’ve been a single child.. and my dad has a new girlfriend, since things with my mom didn’t work out. and while the girlfriend herself is a nice lady, oh my fucking bloody god how annoying the children are!!!! annoying annoying annoying annoying annoying! they’re so fuckin annoying. every time they visit my unwillingness to ever be a parent just gets fucking reinforced. especially when they (my dad and her) have to do something and i have to take care of the kids. gosh that shit makes me wanna fucking end it all frfr.

thank fucking fuck they haven’t moved in, because if they had id get urges to fucking harm myself. people say “kids are something beautiful” and god, if you’re of that opinion, bless your patience. those aren’t even bad kids and im very fucking pissed, annoyed and overstimmed every fucking time they’re here. i can’t and don’t wanna fucking imagine how bloody fucking pissed id he had those kids been bratty or something. they’re normal kids and their vicinity make me feel so fucking incredibly pissed. how the fuck paid babysitters do this shit, how the fuck actual parents do this shit. i could fucking never.

my fucking pressure goes through the motherfucking roof because those children, it feels like they fucking refuse to even try to understand what you’re trying to tell them :/. for obvious reasons i won’t reveal actual ages but let’s just say one is really sweet and small and the other one is the one that actually makes me so fucking pissed.

and i don’t want anyone to consider me a sibling. maybe you think it’s really sweet the children “accepted” me, or whatever else most “normal” people would say or think. but i don’t give a shit. children incredibly piss me off and go on my nerves, they don’t even have to do anything for me be grumpy, salty, snappish. i simply fucking despise children. i will never fucking have my own. i just fucking bloody can’t.

and sure, it may seem like a contradiction for someone that’s not very mature, and someone who’s childish at times to dislike kids, i dont fucking care. i can’t choose what goes on my fucking nerves.