gosh i have gotten old! i’ve just turned 28 a few hours ago. this isn’t some ancient age, but im not super young either. this is the age that’s neither here nor there. at this point, many people would’ve already been stressing about works, bills, maybe even family/kids. but i have none of that! i have no stress and no worries in life. maybe being a failure in life, maybe being behind is a good thing. i am as old as i am, yet i am practically living like a teenager. to some people, this would be torture, but to me, i am perfectly sound with this life. okay, it’d be nice to live alone and have a job, but even then i’d still live the same way during my free time lol.

it’s currently ten minutes past 3 am as i am writing this. i will go shower after i am done writing, then i will play some overwatch maybe, or some other game. and hopefully sleep by 5 or 6 in the morning!

when i wake up, my dad will take me mini-shopping to a drogerie, he said i can pick something nice-smelling as my birthday gift, and after that we’ll go buy candles for my cake at another store, and perhaps order some bbq!! i don’t really have irl friends so no one will come, but i still don’t think it’ll be too bad. i know my dad will try to make me as happy as possible!

i kinda used to hate birthdays from 22-ish up until now. i hated how “old” i am getting. but realistically? i am not old at all! my life still has a ton of time to get in place. only because our parents had it figured out by 18, doesn’t mean i am actually too late to figure out my life! there’s still plenty of time to get things where i want them to be!

i hope i will have a job and my own place to live next year at this time. but even if i don’t, that’s okay too. i am quite depressed and sad most of the time (not clinical depression tho), especially near, and on my birthday. but this year is different... i am... actually okay. i am so hopeful for life and my future. i am sure everything will be where it is supposed to be!

i cannot stop time, and thus it is stupid to feel sad about the passage of said time. i need to accept it, and just try to live my life the best i can. although i do think i wasted my teens and 20s, my 30s will be amazing, i am sure of it!

here’s it for at least 50 more years! cheers! (i wish i actually had some alcohol rn lol)