hi my bloggie its been a while since i’ve posted anything, hasn’t it? honestly i’ve had nothing to post. and i didn’t want to force myself to post. because then the post would come out scuffed.

i need to talk into the void (this blog) of how terrified i am of an another pandemic happening this year... even tho i kno i know the professionals are saying not to worry, i still worry. their words don’t override my internal worry...

and ill be honest i feel physically and emotionally similarly to how i did in 2019... alongside extreme deja vu and the impending sense of doom.

now, that is not necessarily bad, but something is definitely not right either.. i obviosly hope the disease will be contained and prevented from spreading further. i think this is something everyone’s hoping for. but i truly cant help but feel scared. like i already mentioned, i know the international medical professionals are telling us not to worry, and i am aware this thankfully hadn’t (and i hope wouldn’t) reach my country yet. but, im still worried about it...

and don’t get me started on how this shit allegedly started to spread? you’re telling me some genuine fucking dumb idiots, went into a landfill?? so they can go see some rare birds?? before boarding that ship?? i get having hobbies. and birdwatching does sound fun in theory, but... how fucking dense can you be!? you. went. into. a fucking. landfill???????????? to watch birds???? i sometimes truly lack any understanding for the human kind... those two people, were unfortunate enough to be the first two people to die from this virus, on that ship. and that is truly sad, i hope at least their family can eventually find some peace.

but can i please rant some more about how they went into a landfill tho?? like even a little kid knows its a place you should avoid. everyone knows landfills can be a potential breeding ground for all kind of diseases, right. like.. you have a shitton of trash, and a shitton of decaying dead wild animals that died there. and you act like its completely normal to just walk through one because you wanted to see birds?? i genuinely don’t get it. out of all fucking things these two could do.. they went there out of all fucking places. like if they haven’t caught this virus, it could’ve been something else.

if we really get into another pandemic im about to fucking crash out. while yes, i am an introverted, and like... staying at home is what i do anyways, so a potential lockdown wouldn’t affect me all that much, is the fact that this fucking virus has allegedly 30-40% mortality rate, and the fact that this could’ve been prevented if those two people didn’t allegedly go and watch the damned birds. im fucking terriffied. so fucking terrified... i just hope i can have trust in medical professionals, and this shit gets contained, and the spread is stopped...

fuck the goddamn rat virus. please stay safe everyone :( i don’t like it at all this feel of extreme deja vu. i hope my gut feeling is wrong, i hope we all stay healty, i hope this doesn’t spread any more and further it already has, and i hope no more people die...